What is it homosexuality, lack of self esteem, or afraid to love or sexual abused past?

Question

I dont know whats going on with me.... im 26 and I dont like men telling me im pretty, I dont like men opening up the doors for me... I dont like men paying for me to eat or anything else... I was dating this guy and we would talk over the internet and we met once (before we started talking on the internet)we stopped chatting for a while due to his job and now he left me a message on my phone... saying i missed you.... now I have said numerous times I miss him but over the internet(I type it in) but hearing his voice is scary and him saying I miss you that just bothers me... when other guys say I miss you where have you been to my face I get scared and I shy away from them or I will try to argue with them so they wont be near me anymore... granted I was sexually abused by men growing up (I seriously think more than once) and men just scare the c**p out of me... being in a relationship with a guy would scare the heck out of me.... as far as women... I dont think im a L*****n because I cant see myself with a woman as far as a relationship at all.... friends....sure... I admit my self-esteem(you can tell in my wardrobe) is crushed to the ground right now due to being young... I dont think im pretty at all I have something on me that I would like to change about me... I dont think im smart (although I have 2 degree already and working on a 3rd one) im very shy due to this and when I talk honestly it seems like no one is listening at work or a home (I live at home with my parents) a trying to find my place... I just graduated from college and Im just trying to venture out a bit(yes I have a well benifitted stressful career) tell me what can be happening? am I too independent, am I a L*****n and do know it, or is my self-esteem too low due to men who were in my life as a child damaging my self worth

Answer 1

How about none of the above.

You are born that way

Answer 2

I doubt it's homosexuality, but I've learned never to rule anything out completely.

If you can find a way, I strongly suggest you speak to a licensed therapist. She (assuming you'd be more comfortable talking to a woman), can help you sort through all of this.

I'm guessing it's a mixture of your past and low self-esteem. Hopefully, you can get the help you need to work through this, and recognize your worth.

*hugs*

Answer 3

Is there a deeper meaning to being left-handed, other than simply using the left hand?

Being g*y has no deeper meaning than simply being attracted to someone of the same s*x.  It has nothing to do with lack of self esteem, or being afraid to love or being sexually abused in the past.  It is simply a normal variation in sexuality (and not just human sexuality).

Answer 4

For me, homosexuality is about a need to love and be loved by another man, not an insecurity. It's not anything unnatural, because if it was, I wouldn't be able to love another man the way I do, because to love is innate, it's natural: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;...