I've been having some random, awkward issues lately. I think it might be anxiety.. but I have been really paranoid about things lately, like people looking at me when they drive by my house or being able to see into my window at night.. I have weird thoughts when I drive, every time I stop in front of a car or I park, thoughts come into my head about crashing into them or them crashing into me, it's not like I think about it, it's just automatically what I think. I've also been noticing a lot of smaller things, like a light bulb making a clicking noise and I picture it exploding, but totally unintentionally. I used to have a lot of friends and now it seems that people don't like me anymore, I try to be outgoing and nice like always, but I feel fake doing it and people still don't like me. I get nervous people are talking about me and I have a feeling of fear in my chest. there's nothing that I can think of that can trigger this, I have a good job, great family, have a few relationships that I can count on..I keep worrying about the future and what might happen later, everything I do I have to think about what the consequences might be or what might come from it. I try covering up by spending tons of money on material things to make myself feel better, but it doesn't help. sometimes even the smallest things make me feel like my insides are going to burst out and I need to start crying or something, but I feel like I don't care about anybody in the world.. anyway, the thoughts and feelings keep getting worse and now that's all I think about and have been researching things online for days. anybody know what I should do? or what this might be? or why this is happening!
* who ever got through this whole post, you're a trooper! :)
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