What on earth is wrong with me? am i just a paranoid freak?

Question

this may sound stupid...this may sound weird...or this may sound serious. plz just read it. i need advice, help, or anything else that will fix this.

okay, so...i'm usually pretty much a calm person..well, not really. but still. i have always been a high-strung person. ever since i could remember.

at night, i can't sleep. i just lay in my bed, and cover myself up with the blankets. i always have the feeling someone's watching me as i sleep, so i have to keep the blankets over myself so whatever is out there can't watch me.

sometimes, if i can't drift asleep...i'll get up and get something to eat. i'll walk to my kitchen, but all the while, i'm glancing behind my shoulder about every 3 seconds to make sure nothing is there. i can't explain what i think is watching me, but it gives me a horrible feeling.

i hate being in complete silence, especially at night when nobody is awake. i always imagine it being so quiet, calm, and peaceful, and then all of a sudden i hear a shrill screech and something pops out at me.

whenever in my room, the door has to be closed, and locked. with the blinds completely closed, so nobody can look in. i don't know why i lock myself in my room...h**l...i don't know even know what's wrong with me.

right now, even in broad daylight..i can't jsut sit back in my chair and close my eyes. i always fear opening them back up and seeing something staring at me.

i'd like to add i never drink that much coffee. and i'm not a hyper person.

what is wrong with me, and what can i do to help myself out?

all answers appreciated. thank you. ^_^

Answer 1

You should never take any drug... wow...

all kidding aside, I think that what you are going through is not that uncommon, every one is scared of the dark at somepoint, some get over it, some don't.

What you need to do is to try to get these negative thoughts out of your head. Think of pleasant things, read a book.

If it is as bad as you think it is, seek a phycologist.

Good luck...  

Answer 2

How old are you, i think young because of the ref to my room and blankets. Has this been going on forever, Havent your parents noticed. I would suggest getting real help, tell parents and/or tell school so they can set that up. Once they figure it out and make it go away, youll be fine... but dont wait to long.

Answer 3

When I was little, I used to feel the same way. I was easily frightened and any old horror movie would send went cowering for weeks. But, then I realized that nothing was there. Nothing was going to hurt me. I promised it to myself. It really helped. I also used to laugh when I got scared. It just got the stress out. Sometimes, I would even think in my head "it cant hurt me!"

Well, that was just me. I also used to think about happy things, and that would help

I think the reason for that was because of my parents. Especially my dad. His vision of the word was "unsafe".  I think that negativity reached me somehow. Making the word seem unstable and scary to me

Answer 4

You sound like me, it seems like you are afraid of being alone!!  

Answer 5

noooooooooo.

you are NOT alone.

I even think that when I'm showering and I get out of the bath and look i the mirror that there is someone behind it recording the footage. and behind the mirror is outside, not another room.

also, if i go out in public, I think ppl are following me and in public places, I think there are cameras behind the mirrors. I think it's my leo asc, it says that ppl with leo asc feel as tho they are living life on stage and everyone is watching them. I also hear paranoia is the root of major insecurity?--shet, it probably is.

Answer 6

There's no such things as ghosts.  You are quite right.

But there are such things as negative energies - and you have one attached to you - almost certainly.

You display and describe all the signs of someone who has one of these energies attached to them - and you most definitely probably can see something looking at you.

Your best course of action is to find someone who does house clearing - if you telephone the society of dowsers, british if in england and american if in usa, they have people who clear these spaces.  Then you will find that you rest easy, you will sleep at night, and you will find the paranoia gradually seeps away.

You may laugh and you may scoff but what do you have to lose but another nights sleep hmm?  Make the call now.  They charge about £40 to do this clearing.

The choice is yours now.  A good nights sleep and be positive or carry on as you are and brush away what I have said.

Just a small point but change your avatar.  It is absolutely possible to draw negative energy to you by the way you behave or to show a negativity or aggressive side due to the negativity attached to you.

Trust me on this one.  Change the avatar name,

Answer 7

You know, I had a similar fear when I was younger. I would always find the darkest most shadowed place out of any room or hallway and stare at it, late at night. I KNEW the moment I looked away, the thing that was hiding there would open its glowing red eyes.

It isn't unusual. What you have to do is take control, rather than letting it control you.

Now, at night, why don't you try this? Acquire some calming music, I would recommend something along the lines of the Moonlight Sonata, but anything you feel comfortable with is good. I personally used Third Eye Blind's self-titled album.

Play it on loop. The white noise will help you sleep and may mask the random, scary, harmless noises of the night.

As for the things watching you, well... there is nothing to be done. All you have to do is close your eyes so you don't see anything (shadows on the walls and the like) that will make you think of them. Lay in bed, normally exposed, eyes shut. Your door is locked, your blinds are shut. Nothing can hurt you. Just listen to the music.

Answer 8

In the beggining when you where describing how in your room at night you feel some watching you, i thought, 'oh good i'm not theonly one!'

but for me it's like someone is waiting for me to do something or say something, so i talk to myself a little bit before i go to sleep, as if someone i can't see is listening. it actually helps. TRY IT! make some noise. even if it's just a whisper.

With keeping your door shut, and blinds colsed i do what the same thing. Also my closet door. nothing can be open even a crack. All for the same reason.

Do you have any pets? Cuz whenever everyone is out of the house besides me, it doesn't bother me cuz i have a huge dog and 3 cats, so it's like 4 people are still with me ( well for me)

Do you like horror movies??? How often do you watch them??? I watch them ALL the time, thats' all i watch!  I don't get scared by them, but after the first 20 i've seen I started thinking like i WAS in a horror movie. And it's still goes on, Like my whole life is being filmed except the scarey things are real and they can pop out and scare me whenever. it happens to me when it's quiet and i look in to mirrors.

it's hard to describe.

And too add to my problems my house is haunted, maybe yours is???

idk i don't think thats what your problem is. maybe. =/

Hearing screams doesn't happen to me, soooo idk this goes back to my horror movie theory. Or maybe you have a poltergiest? that could be causing you the feeling that someone is watchiong you, and that could be making you feel umcomfortable all the time.

But i can't tell just from reading something, so thats' jsut another guess.

"right now, even in broad daylight..i can't jsut sit back in my chair and close my eyes. i always fear opening them back up and seeing something staring at me."

^^^^^^ that right there could mean that you ARE sharing your home with a spirit, ghost, whatever, that something you can't see is in the room with you. But idk i don't i'm just comming  up with all possibilities. you might be paranoid, but that just sounds too harsh.

ummmmm.....talk to some one professional about this, if they just perscribe you with something and look at you like you are mental, then don't see them any more, ignorant unhelpful doctors won't help.

( my mom would know)

yeah thats all i can come up with, hope i helped alittle bit, and i hope everything gets better for you!

Answer 9

I agree with Carriero... I think you don't like to be alone.

And maybe there is a ghost in your house? lol or guardian angel

Don't be paranoid. Be Brave! Be Bold! Face your fears for what you fear may not be real. If something pops up and freaks you out then think that you're hallucinating. Probably just a ghost. I believe in Ghosts. If you don't believe in Ghosts then you be paranoid and freaked out when you see one.

Here is the song "Paranoid" lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRwwYWlbP...

Why such an Evil Avatar pic? It Intimidates me

Answer 10

wow i thoght i was paranoid

i guess you can  just relax

Answer 11

I know exactly how you feel. you are not crazy. You are probably in a place where you dont feel calm

Answer 12

I'm... I'm really sorry to hear that. Let's see... Did you just watch a horror movie or something?

It's easy for me to fall asleep. I guess it's because I always sleep at the same time each night and my body clock got used to it. As for your paranoia, practice thinking of happy thoughts. There are so many things to look forward to and good memories embedded in your brain. Focus on those and it should help out not just with paranoia but in your outlook in life too. Everything's gonna be fine, okay? =)

LMAO. Your situation's like Papercut by Linkin Park!

"It's like I'm... paranoid lookin' over my back!!! It's like a... whirlwind inside of my head!!!"

But seriously, promise me you'll focus on the positive.

Edit: I'm really happy I could help and even happier that my answers make you smile. That's part of the reason why I put more thought in them, actually, and I'm glad they serve their purpose. ;)

O_O I just noticed that this was my answer #666

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