What should I do? I feel lost and confused ?

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What should I do? I feel lost and confused?

I can't stand being home. I never really felt like I belonged. I never felt like I can talk to my parents about important things like school, my future etc.

During the most important year of my life which was my senior year in high school, I did not get the support that I desired from my parents. In fact, it was during that year that I ignored the most. The only thing that kept me sane was the fact that I had a part-time after school job so I didn't have to be home a whole lot.

The tension being me and my parents died down over the years, the second and third year I was in college because it was when they realized that they were pushing away.

However, I now find myself in the same position that I was years ago. They are now ignoring me and I am about to be a senior in college. This time I am stronger emotionally so I don't feel the need for their support and believe me when I say this, I don't plan on inviting them to my graduation because they were never really there for me.

My question here is that, I want to leave home after I do a post-graduate certificate in e-commerce. I was never an advocate for renting as I think that it is a waste of money. However, at this point I am really considering it. I can't take being home any longer.

I am currently in NJ but I have always wanted to move to San Jose, California. I know that it will be a hard life in the first couple of years. This is something that I will prepare myself for.

Am I making the right decision?

Answer 1

You are an adult now and if you feel an emotional distance between yourself and your parents, try to make up for it... what I mean by that is let them know that you are there for them when they need you to be.

If you want to leave home and go to San Jose, then by all means make plans to do so.  See if there are any jobs going in San Jose for something in E-Commerce.  Ask people at college if there are any cheap boarding facilities there that you can stay in for the first few months.  Check out if there are places you can go to for good and cheap food and clothes.  See if you are able to visit with a friend who lives in San Jose.