We have asset groups where we talk about teenage problems. I got my stupid virtus counselor for my assets leader. I hate her so much. Hate her times 1,000. I have really bad history with her. She creeps me out. She makes me feel uncomfortable. One time she was even following me. I could tell because when I quickened my pace, she did too and she followed me down the stairs and through the hallway. I started fast-pacing and I got her off my trail.
Anyway, I was so upset when I got her. I'm having a really bad 8th grade year. I wanted to fix the problem, so I went to my teacher who is my friend and from the look on my face she knew I was really upset about getting the vrirtus counselor (I confided to her about almost everything in my life,including the bad history with the virtus counselor). She offered to switch me and like a dumb a** I agreed. After that, I thought of the counselor calling my mom and asking her why I switched. Does she have full obligation to do that? She knows how much I don't like talking to her and how I hate being around her. I hate her so much.
Anyway, I asked my teacher if she would call my mom and she said she won't. But I wasn't convinced.
I talked to a friend about this and she said I should tell the virtus counselor I'm switching groups. I got enough courage to go to her office and tell her.
After the last class of the day, I went to homeroom that lasts for about 10 minutes. I asked my homeroom teacher if I could see the counselor and she got supicious like I had a problem or something(I do, but I do not want to talk to her about it.)
Me and my friend went up to the virtus's office(I did not want to go alone, and my friend wanted to talk about helping her organizing a special day for the school). The virtus wasn't there so I left a note saying "I just wanted to tell you that I switched to Mrs. F's assets group. Have a great day.) and I drew a smiley for an added effect. When we walked out of there, we saw the virtus talking to a 6th grade teacher and she walked over to us and that's when I gave her the note.
The bell was about to ring, so I went back to homeroom to put up my chair on the table(we have to do that so the janitor can clean the room) My homeroom teacher saw me and asked if she was in her office and I said no(I didn't want to tell her about the note thing). She patted me on the back and asked if I wanted to talk to her. I didn't say anything. My throat got really tight and was on the verge of crying(over-whelmed about everything. I put up my chair and the first dismissal bell for the walkers rang, so I left with them. My teacher saw me leaving and asked if I was a walker and I said no. Then, she asked if I was going to check if the virtus counselor back at her office and I lied and said I was going to check. She followed me out of the door to watch me and instead of going up the stairs where the virtus's office is, I went down the stairs to see my teacher and tell her I gave the virtus a note. Of course, my teacher saw me going down the stairs, not down.
I'm really afraid my homeroom teacher will talk to me tomorrow about yesterday. And I'm even more worried that the virtus counselor will call my mom. I thought giving her a note was the right thing to do. Was it? And does she have full obligation to contact my mom. I did not say I was hurting myself or planning on hurting someone else. Or thoughts of sucide. I never said any of those things.
Please give me some advice on what to do and some postive words. And please don't say anything mean, rude, or smart-alecky.
Thank you.
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