What should I do? is there something wrong with me?

Question

I grew up is a abusive family, in my family, people didn't talk, they scram.

My mom also ignored, made fun of me, and hit me. Luckily it is all over now. I mean my mom still screams and maybe hits me from time to time, but it is WAY better. But the thing is I've never felt happy and it hurts me a lot. I tried standing up to my mom, talking to her, I even tried ignoring it. Because of this I use to cut myself, you know to let the pain go, but I realized it was wrong, though it was hard I stopped. I went through a lot but I try to keep everything that is bad at the back of my mind, and I do pretty good job at it. That's the reason I never Have nightmares, I just sleep with no dreams. It is hard for me to even smile, even if I tell the school something, my mom will just make me go to another school, she thinks they are wrong, and that she does nothing bad. All I ever wanted is to be happy, you know? What CAN I do?

Answer 1

there is nothing wrong with you.

in fact, I admire your strength. you have recognised the problem, and are seeking help - you are a stronger person than I.

I lost my smile when I was about 5 or 6... I have found it again now though, so dont give up.

I do not know what you can do, depends on your age, etc...

Just remember, no matter how dark it seems, you are never alone, you will always have friends even if you dont recognise them at first...

Answer 2

Well, you know what, right now recently, my friend who is like my baby brother told me that he is being abused by his mother and his parents are divorced. So i cant say i know how u feel exactly becuz i have never been abused. But right now i am so scared to death that something is going to happen, i feel like i cant do anything about it, i've tried to convince him to tell someone, you should tell you teacher at school or something becuz once you do, they're not going to let you go back with her so she cant hurt you if you're scared of that..I honestly don't know but i do know how it feels to feel like you cant do anything about it. As far as the mentally abusing goes, just dont listen to it, and dont cut yourself anymore!! tht does not make it better even though it may seem like it does, it doesnt. Please dont do it anymore. Even though she does that, she still loves you she's just probably have mental illness

Answer 3

Sweetheart it is NOT "way better"  if she is still hitting you "from time to time". You should not be abused at all. You need someone to talk to who can help you with all your problems. You do not have to go through this any longer by yourself. Hang tough baby, I promise you things will get better. I'm in your corner. I admire your strength and determination.

Please call this number:

National Child Abuse Hotline.

1-800-4-A-Child/1-800-422-4453

Answer 4

you have depression and borderline personality disorder ( the cutting) see the school nurse.

Answer 5

Ive said this before and ill say it again. Stay with family or friends or go to the police that is verbal and physical assault if she yells or swears at you and hits you! I'm so proud of you for not cutting yourself anymore, you must be a strong person to cope.