What should i be doing in my horrible state?

Question

please don't judge me and if you're not going to help don't bother answering

i am an emo (don't get bad ideas about emos though) i have cut all the way up my arms i am starting to think im depresed, i have got 2 tiny little cuts on my throat, the first time i cut i had like four cuts on my wrists my mum found out and dragged me off to therapy for one session and i didnt talk at all (the lady was a family friend) but this time i have them all the way up my arms and 2 little ones on my neck and i am fighting with 3 freinds and they are horrible and i have been through divorces with my mum and bullying since year 1 and im not coping well. i pray every night and im begining to think there is something seriously wrong with me.

my friend suggested talking to he nicest teacher at my school she said she has talked to her and told her her secrets and she told anyone i just don't my mum to go through this and i dont want her to know and i have threatened to kil myself a fw times.

im not attention seeking im help seeking. im being teased at school aswell i really need help and i want to do it as quietly as possible

do you have any suggestions?

Answer 1

It is possible  you have Borderline Personality Disorder.  Only a trained professional can diagnosis this and you should not go to a family friend but to someone who can be objective.

For  your information:

Borderline Personality Disorder is a serious psychiatric disorder.  The person usually has mood swings and is often depressed.  They have serious problems with relationship going from idolizing to devaluing and then back again.  They have a great fear of being abandon and do not like to be alone.  Their overall sense of self is unstable.  They don’t know who they are and also have sexual identity conflicts.  The have chronic feelings of emptiness.  They often do cutting behavior to reduce their emotional pain.  They often have suicidal ideations.  They have intense anger problems.  Under stress they can disassociate.  They were usually sexually abused as children.

BPD develops in the first 18 to 36 months of development and is based around separation. At this stage of life, children find it difficult to maintain a fixed picture of their parents in their mind so they have to return to the parent to make sure they are still there.  This is object (object being the parent usually the mother) constancy. The child will then separate again and continue to repeat this process. Individuals who develop BPD are unable to complete this process: they are either neglected by the parents (the parents are not there for them), or the parents are over protective, smothering them preventing them from separating effectively. The child develops the tendency to see the parent as either all good, or all bad.  They also are unable to incorporate the parent’s image into their own so do not have a fixed secure image of themselves.  This is how the Object Relations Theory explains it.  There are other explanations but I think this one is the best.

Counseling and sometimes medication can be helpful for treating this condition.  Many physicians and counselor do not like treating these individual because they can be very difficult patients.

Remember these disorders were created by a group of physicians who group various symptoms and placed labels on them.  This has been very helpful for insurance companies but not necessarily helpful for patients.

Find a Counselor whom you trust and can talk freely.  You are an individual and should be treated as such rather than treated as someone with a particular disorder.  If this helps let me know.

Answer 2

You have a disease. You are either depressed or manic depressive. You need to talk to a psychologist that is NOT friends with your mother. I can't believe your Mom would set you up with someone she already knows. That's ridiculous. Tell her that you need help, and that you'd like to choose your own doctor. This is your life, and your choice. You're cutting b/c you feel that you need an escape... you can talk a/b this with someone who is trustworthy that you know won't go back to your Mom and tell her everything you confided her in. Good luck. You're not alone!

Answer 3

What you need to do is take control of your life. If things are getting to you, remove those things.

Someone bullying you? First thing monday, go right up to them and smack the c**p out of them. I'm serious. It doesn't matter if you think you'll lose, it matters that you tried. People will see that you don't take c**p and they'll think twice before teasing you.

Hey but who am i, just some schizophrenic d**k head with depression and a few suicide attempts under my belt.

Answer 4

Taking Authority over Your EmotionsEmotions are an area that many Christians don’t understand. Because of this, Believers often allow their emotions to lead them. As a result, emotionally-led decisions take them on a course that is out of the will of God for their lives. While God gave every human being emotions, it is critical that we get control over negative emotions and subject them to the Word of God. Make these daily confessions so that you can subject your feelings to God’s Word and make the right decisions:

Heavenly Father, thank You for giving me healthy emotions. I declare that negative emotions will not impact my decisions, neither will they dictate my responses to difficult circumstances. I will submit my feelings to You in every situation that I encounter in life. You have given me authority over the power of the enemy, and I declare that nothing shall by any means hurt me, including people and situations that try to negatively influence my emotions. When I feel overwhelmed by life, or troubled by negative emotions, like Jesus, I will pray and keep moving forward. I bind depression, anxiety, worry, fear, doubt, anger, rejection and any other negative emotion that tries to attack my mind. I possess power, love and a sound mind. I thank You, Father, that I walk in peace, joy and the comfort of the Holy Ghost. I have the mind of Christ and my emotions are controlled by the Word of God. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen

Scriptural references:

·Mark 14:33-35

·Luke 10:19

·2 Timothy 1:7

·Romans 14:17

·1 Corinthians 2:16

GOD BLESS U!!!

Answer 5

You're not bad. You're not stupid. You are trying your best to cope. Cutting is a coping strategy for dealing with all the overwhelming and horrid things that are happening to you, and you are not alone in doing what you are doing. Your cutting is a way of expressing how you are feeling. What you need is someone to understand and help.

You may find it difficult communicating to people who already know you and you may think they will judge you so I'd see my GP or contact a help line anonymously to get advice on different coping strategies and ways to deal with the pressure you are under more effectively.

Don't give up, and don't assume it will always stay like this. There are ways forward but you do have to make the decision to ask the right people for help ie GP or someone you trust.

Answer 6

Your mum cares about you and you are compassionate towards her. There is nothing much wrong, just that you have the habit of cutting yourself. Why are you doing this? Is it for pleasure? It is better to quit now then later when you really hurt yourself. Once you stop cutting yourself, you will find new friends.

Answer 7

nothings wrong with you, you just have had a really rough life.

i would see a therapist but not anyone you alreaddy know, because how awkward would that be?

oh and talk to your friends and tell them how you feel.

hope that helps =)

Answer 8

I said it all in your last question......please reread it.

Answer 9

What is bothering you??? if you cant think coz ofyour brain clogging your thoughts and your head is full of thoughts that you feel frozen at times, in this case you not sure what is realy bothering you..

But there's one thing to realise, not to know or understand but to realise...

Can you accept who you are?????

Acceptance is a great teacher without resistance/reactive.

Dont think to much about it, just clear your head and be a watcher to yourself.

This is not teaching you to become a great person however this is above all of them.

its nature's call and you just have to listen to it.

Email me if you like.  

Answer 10

View the suggestions on what to do about self harming, in section 16, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris  and contact them, when you feel the need to self harm/cut. There is much information, and useful weblinks on my website: far too much to include here, which is why I needed to create it. Seek therapy, to help you address the actual cause of those problems, rather than using an inappropriate method of treating the symptoms, which others have found, doesn't work, in the longer term, and that leaves behind the extra problem of scarring to deal with, then.

Depression is addressed in section 2: view page R first, then female depression, teen depression, page V, and the rest. Bullying is addressed in section 37, and also check out section13.

Answer 11

First of all you need to find new ways of releasing your pain because you cut yourself to release the emotional pain you are feeling.

After that you need to find a friend, a close friends that you can talk to intimately and tell him/her everything that hurts you.

Do some research on the internet and find some suport grups for people who feel just like you, try searching emo suport or something similar.

Remember one thing, you are the only one who can get yourself out of this situation.