What to do about my substance use?

Question

i'm 17. i hate how i feel (i'm in therapy for anxiety and depression). day to day just feels so weird, and dull and dead. i just want to lie down and sleep and not talk to anyone. so most days i do some sort of drug. i can't smoke weed because it makes me nuts, and when i drink i get really depressed and just want to curl up and sob. i've been taking otc sleep aids to relax and just go to bed.

but the problem is, i don't feel like i have anywhere to turn. therapy isn't doing anything, and i feel like **** every day. i want to do drugs but i have some sort of freak out every time i do them. it's like, do i feel dead and empty or downright bad with a passion?

Answer 1

try getting a hobby, I have aviation. It makes the day seem alot shorter, but make sure it is something that you love.

Answer 2

Smoking weed would make me have serious anxiety. Stay away from that. And alcohol is a depressant so you should avoid that too. You're 17 so you're probably still in highschool, and I hated school too! It will get better after you graduate. Try switching therapists, or see a psychiatrist who could maybe prescribe you something else (i.e. something safe and legal). And do something to keep yourself busy, like go to the gym.