My mother has cancer for about the 6th time. And she has been an alcoholic for more than 3 quarters of my life. I am currently a 20 year old college student btw. But since she has cancer, i honestly, and i mean this, i wouldn't mind seeing her die from this.
I know it sounds bad for the most part but i just get so angry at her because she blames everyone else for her "miserable life". When I, along with my dad, and siblings have done everything to make her feel better. Granted, we didn't do everything in the perfect way, but still.
She is getting a divorce with my dad, and she just talks bad about him all the time. The only time he ever said anything bad about her, was when he was explaining to me why he was getting the divorce. It just angers me soo much that she says she wish she could help me financially, when 75% of her paycheck goes to whiskey.
oh and please don't tell me what i should do. I have done everything. I just want to know if you think its bad of me to feel this way
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