We broke up. No fight, he is in a phase when he wants to be free and fool around. Tough decision for him, he would've continued with me but i can not continue feeling that he is not completely with me.
I love him, i am great to him (his opinion), we communicate great, no lying, no cheating, we support each other but he is restless.
I gave him the freedom he needed, even if he wanted to continue like this. I wasn't happy and i was making him unhappy and i hate that. I don't want us to get to the point when he cheats or lies and i hate him...and there is nothing possible between us anymore.
So i told him to be free, do his thing, he would mind his own business i would mind my own, we are friends, i love him, he loves me, he said he would be by me anytime i need him and i should call him no matter what, if i need to talk to him. I don't call him, i don't think you stop hurting when you break up with someone if you talk to the exact person.
My question is: we both said we need the hope that one day we'd be together. I need this now, it keeps me going...he came back later saying that he misses me like h**l and he needs this hope too. And no, we don't get back together now, because if he needs to be free, this would come up sooner or later.
So...do you think this would be possible? If i let him go, and we broke up in the best terms possbile, he respects me and appreciates me more than anybody, Do you think we can go back to where we were and start it all over again, with the conquering, the beginning and all that?
I wonder if the issue is that i am not the one for him (he is for me...:|) and he actually wants to look for that (well actually he says he needs to have more women, to conquer and play and can not be with me because if i am hurt he is hurt...cuz he cares...).
Note: he broke up with his ex (1.5 years ago), after 2.5 years for the same reason. He needed freedom, but the problem is that the last 6 months together were h**l for both of them so i would never want to get there (they both said that between the two of them there will be nothing again, as too many bad things happened...).
So guys..give me your valuable opinion please.
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