I've been married almost 5 yrs and don't mind kids (in fact, I like other ppls kids alot), but am not sure if I'm ready to have kids. When we got married, we were young and didn't want kids, but knew that we might change our minds someday.
I feel like my husband was so much more mature when we got together than he is now. He's addicted to recreation - and when I complain too much about one hobby he moves on to the next.
Otherwise he's a good guy and I love him very much, but I work really hard right now in my own career and at home. I run an office, pay the bills, do the laundry, clean the house, go grocery shopping, keep up with friends & family...he works (very hard) & plays. He doesn't feel responsible for all the things I take care of (naturally) but if I need a break, he won't take care of things for me. Not saying that he won't throw a load of laundry in once in a while or help out - it's just not something he feels is one of his responsibilities.
I feel like he's a giant (very selfish) kid at the moment. But he's started to really want us to have a baby. A few of our friends have them and he lights up around them. I do think he'd be a wondeful dad, but what if he only feels responsible for the kid when it's fun and not when it comes to parenting or the tougher stuff? We've had a few of our friends kids sleep over and he loved it. But that's nothing compared to having a baby 24/7!
Physically and emotionally and mentally I can't handle dumping more on my plate right now without some help with the other things I am responsible for.
But perhaps he needs the purpose in life that a child gives to be able to break the cycle of meaninglessness and empty pursuits that he fills his life with, which has even caused him to become depressed in the past few years. (I, apparently, am not enough, ha ha.)
But I'm afraid of having a baby with him right now because there's no guarantee that he'll change his irresponsible ways. I can't do all that I do and raise a child by myself. He would have to shift his priorities, but if you're going to tell me to have him prove it to me first, I highly doubt I could get him to do that.
So...what are the odds? Would having a baby make him want to grow up again? Would it change his priorities? Could having a baby fix the problems we currently have?
I would never resent having a baby, but feel like we need to be more of a team first. How do you accomplish that?
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