Who can help me solve this inner battle?

Question

FYI - These "parts of me" are, of course, hypothetical entities used to help me ask this question (I haven't gone THAT mad!) lol

A part of me acts as the philosopher. It NEEDS to ask questions about what the purpose of humanity is and what the meaning of life is. It is unwilling to put faith in anyone who claims to have the answer (the Bible, Buddhism, philosophers.) Thus it knows intellectually that it will never be satisfied (you can't prove any system of beliefs.) Still it MUST KNOW what life is all about so it leads me on a wild search of answers that never can be found.

The second part of me is tired of the fruitless questions leading nowhere and it wants so bad for me to just give it up and let go. It wants me to stop asking and let it be, accepting the present reality for what it is. It wants me to accept that life cannot make sense as you live it and wants me to live in the moment making the most of the present.

So I can either keep asking these big questions and accept curiosity as a natural part of humanity or a could try to let it go, forget about questioning and live wholly for the moment; just let it be and let my heart/intuition guide me through life.

I think it would be the most peaceful and satisfied existence to just let it be and I think it would help one to make unbiased decisions straight from the heart and avoid all kinds of delusional ideology. Still there is that part of me that won't give it up and just needs to keep questioning.

Is it ideal to strive to live wholly in the moment or is it better to keep on questioning even when you know you'll never be fully satisfied?

Answer 1

i do understand and yes both sides u need present. it's hard to go on sometimes when u just discovered a truth about life. acceptance let u be. recognition of what u can control and what u cant let's u feel the way u do. spiritually u are growing. i call it that because that's something we all have, atheist or not. we all have an energy, we will be released when we die, so it becomes one with absolut everything. i question alot of things on a daily basis. when i first started philosophizing i fell into a deep depression. needed time to 'digest' what i have learned, then built a safe ways to take it in and still dig for truth. yet it is funny. my patience and acceptance levels went thru the roof and my curiosity is subciding. i guess we all need "new" stuff happening. i hope for the best.         i know not the best answer but somewhere down the line people like us will prevail because we would like to maintain the positive things in life, not just for ourselves but for others too. i dont know if it ever becomes painless though.

Answer 2

You are afraid to die because you think death is a finality and so you keep searching and holding on to familiar ideas and visions that you have seen and heard hundreds of times played over and over again. You are searching for the time to change but you can not recognize time . You are like the generation sealed in the chambers of history still a living relic waiting for someone to hold you so that you can rest in peace .

Answer 3

I personally totally agree with the philosopher part of you who needs to gain an 'internal authority' whereby you are fully aware of exactly why and how what you do is purposeful. my intellect forces me on this search as deferring to an 'external authority' which I follow blindly to engender all my actions is not a possibility for rme personally as 'external authorities'  require questioning due to their hyperreal nature the fact must be removed form the fiction before the best of an exteranl authority can be of value to me  

if you were to "let it be" you may have arrived at the exact attitude expounded by the buddhist philosophy they follow a mindful choiceless action without grasping. they "let it be". but your "let it be" might not be quite theirs - without knowing thiers you cannot tell - what I am trying to say here is that it is OK to build the house of your personal attitude using some bricks from the best patterns that have gone before. if you rely purely on yourself you will end up floundering in an endless sea of hypothesis that you cannot possibly run all of to conlcusion - which is partly the reason you are ready to give up.

It is senseless to reject all formalised previous understandings for arriving at your own understanding based on a preference of acting as your heart tells you because the answer your 'heart' will provide is also based on these patterns you are looking at rejecting, What you would be doing is actuallty closing yourself to learning by enacting the "let it be" attitude now (it would be a refusal to look not a refusal to interfere in that which will be and thus would not match the buddhist philosophy at all - In order to let it be you need to know the part you already play )-

if you "give up"the higher search that would not mean the quality of the actions your heart told you to enact would be low they just might not be as good as they can be

so i hope you don't give up because if you do what you are now is what you will remain. i have always said good is good enough but while you heart is probably good enough right now It won't be forever. If you stop looking for that "answer that can't be found" as you put it , you may undermine the quality of the answers you CAN give. you have to evlove.

as for the free will vs determinism debate the failing that is inherent in most miscomprehensions is the definition of destiny. it is assumed that destiny is specific in the most minute detail but our desitny is general it is to be better and that will come inas many guises as human diversity can find.. Otherwise it would be a scripted reality with all the actors not knowing thier lines yet still delivering them perfectly - and I don't need to tell you thikn that's how it's gong to play out is ridiculous . We are destined for greatness and our free will will take us there (or at least it should if used for good). if we choose poorly we may deny ourselves that greater destiny. which is why i thnk no-one ( including you ) who can formulate questions can afford to stop asking them.

we must live " in the moment" taking into account what made the moment it is nothing short of the sum total of everytihing that went before and that legacy makes it due each persons best. We should not live "for the moment " which to me indictes self-interest above other considerations and is an irresponsible, possibly even degenerate, way of living.

may your search never end and your answers always be good

Buff.

Answer 4

We on the same page but i did myself a favour by living the moment and be thankful for every breath i take and for every move i make.the point of me being here and alive is for me to live life to the fullest so that when i am dead i dont regret the wonderful moments i let pass me by.i have so many querias  that only God can answer not a human being cos we here together in this misterious world,we all chasing the wind with questions in our heards that no man can answer.so stay put relax and live this life fully cos no body knows whats gonna happen after death and even those who are dead they wont come back to life to tell whats like on the other side.So live as if everyday is gonna be your last day on earth.GOOD LUCK.

Answer 5

You're not on your own, I sometime think what's the point, if were just going to die, and turn into dust and forgotten memory's any way, why bother .

But if you think that then you miss out on what's important, what life is friends family, hundreds of little experiences, tastes, sounds. the question you ask can never be answered. When we die it will be like nothing we can conceive, of just that...nothing. I think every ones curious every one wants to know, but there's a fine line between being curious and letting it overtake.

Answer 6

The past is only a memory and the future is just a hope, so yes, it's correct to live in the moment, but not for the reasons you might be thinking. The basic reason is that the concept of time is not a reality but is created by man for practical purposes. Time belongs to the relative world which vibrates at a slower rate; if you increase the vibratory rate so high then time would cease to exist, there would just be a state of BEING in the NOW -- I AM -- and that is your true state, which is pure consciousness.

You have been seeking answers simply through your intellect and this is the world of duality, the relative, of cause and effect, the outer and the inner. The mind must be made still and allow intuition to guide you to soul awakening. It is the centre within, that 'still, small voice' we all have but don't always listen to. This is where you will find what is eternal and 'real'. It is through meditation and quieting of the mind that you allow your soul to develop and take charge of your life. Man is more than clay!