Okay, so this is only really one experience, but I really appreciate the aqua sign now--more than before.
I can be a lazy ****, but something about an aquarian ex just drives me to want to be better--hotter, smarter, stronger more than anyone ever before. And no, I don't mean this in an immediate sense (like omigah lemme find boy, sit on his lap, make out, take cute digital camera pictures, and FACEBOOK or MYSPACE it). Why? B/c I only thought that way 5 yrs ago--and b/c I'm strong enough to not need those petty justification/"bragging rights" so to speak even though it would be so easyyyyy.....
Why even try to p**s him off--if the means do not fit to my own growth/development.....heheheheh. In the end, I need/want the payoff to be much greater, better, satisfying--if not agonizingly delicious.
^^I'm sure if he/she read the above, he/she would probably be sighing in relief/wiping off beads of sweat--b/c I know he is just that pathetic and weak. And I love it hehehehehe :D
I actually do appreciate him for entering my life, b/c remembering those troubled old times would be beneficial to my growth. I tend to remember people who have been very generous--but also those who have not (and more so those who have not). I now appreciate each and every day (that is devoid of him and my stupid outdated worries more and more).
Despite all else, it does really feel good to be alive, and I am grateful that I encountered such a hott lowlife so early in life--b/c the only thing I would redo in life (if I could relive it again), is to make all my mistakes (like this one), a whole lot earlier : D
HAVE A GREAT 8/8/08 EVERYONE!!!!!!!!
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