I have NO energy whatsoever. I think it might be my depression, but it could be something else. This is very disabling. I have to struggle to get up & do simple tasks. Everything is so difficult & overwhelming.
I'm lying down on my mattress on the floor with my laptop. Sometimes I feel like I can't even move. I feel immobile. Most times I don't even have the energy to THINK. I get distracted easily & can't think straight. Can't focus. Almost everything I do is absent-minded. I'm also very clumsy. I feel like I have a mental blockage. It's hard for me to adjust or change my position while in bed sometimes.
I hate to admit it, but I don't even think I can take proper care of myself anymore. Struggle to shower, clean up, leave the house, run errands. Struggle to get out of bed.
It feels like I can't imagine my depression improving. I don't feel suicidal, but I feel frustrated, depressed, angry, & bored with my life. I don't have a future to look forward to, even though I'm 25, with a BA degree. I feel like my education is a waste. I can't find a job because of my Tourette's. I'm anxious around people. I have a lot of problems in my life that I can't deal with. Everything is too overwhelming.
Thing is. I don't want anyone else taking care of me. I don't want a personal care attendant. I don't want family taking care of me. I don't want to live under other people's house rules. I don't want other people managing my money. I wanna stay independent. I have no motivation. I feel like I'm mentally dying.
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