Why am I bored? I don't know why..?

Question

I'm lost--new school, lack of communication at home and school (I have an ASL interpreter at school), lack of friends (I've used to have a lot of friends but I've lost some of them), 3 stepbrothers and they rarely talk to me, when I go to church I don't feel faithful (I believe in god but sometimes I feel nothing), I want to get great grades but I don't feel highly motivated (probably because I'm embarrassed to have an ASL interpreter), I don't know what I want. I'm completely lost and I can't find myself. I don't even know what is my favorite color or movie. I'm 17 and I will be 18 in less than 5 months and I really want people to know the "real me" when I go to school in the fall. I want to change my looks, gain my motivation in school, wear hearing aid, make new friends, join some activities. I want to change now..but I'm lazy and I don't know what I want.. is life really bored or it just me?

Answer 1

Well life is not boring but I am sure the situation your are in does not help.  Pls do not be embarrassed about having an ASL interpreter.  I know its hard for me to say things like that because I am not in your position, I am in fact going to be going to school to be an interpreter.  As of right now I work for the state relay service for the deaf.  I know a lot of people feel like you.  At least with starting school you can basically start over and be the real you.  I know it is hard for any of us to make friends, but just believe in yourself and you will find lots of people who are accepting.  Good luck and *hugs*.

Answer 2

I kinda think you've answered your own question -  you're not sure who you really are (yet) it takes time,. and some of us need longer to mature than others,. like a fine wine =)  however, I'd also like to say, don't be in too much of a rush to grow up too quickly,.

life if not necessarily about ticking a certain box by a certain age,. you will do things in your own time,. in your own unique way,..

not sure what an ASL interpreter is (sorry!) or what that means in regards to what learning difficulties you may be having,. but I would imagine that your school (or local community group thingy) might have a number of activities for you to get involved in,. just for the h**l of it,.

try a few different things,. see what you like,. see what you're good at,. read more / and read a variety! (or listen to them on cd), listen to bad music,. grow your hair, draw/paint,. take photos,. swim,. do anything,. something,. anything to make yourself feel more alive..

and don't stress too much about God/religion or for that matter your brothers,. growing up can be hard, for everyone,. figuring out what to believe in can take years,...

if your brothers are non-communicative don't take it too personally,. they've got their own **** to deal with too - right,. ...but try and get out there and mingle with other people,.

if getting out there is too hard,. try find some online communities,. revolving around things you do like - again you gotta work that out for yourself: books, movies, music,. art - all good things to start off with,.

also - and I don't want to sound like an old nag here,. but watch your diet,. mood swings can massively be effected by what you put in,.

:o))

Answer 3

I think the first two answers are really good and I can't add any thing. Just wan't to offer my encouragement. Changing schools has understandably knocked you hard so be patient and try to be positive. All the best.