Recently something happened to me physcially but it wasn't in my control and I got scared. I was at my boyfriends house and his family was there and now I feel like nervous to see them again because I feel like people will be thinking of the incident and thinking somethings wrong with me everytime they see me. My boyfriend says people worry because they care, but I just feel like they are "watching" me and thinking I'm weird now.
I kind of have control issues so when this happened, I took out some of my fear and sadness out on my boyfriend when all he is trying to do is help, and I ended up hurting him (emotionally, not physically). I don't know how to accept his help. I feel like, once again, if he thinks I need help then something is wrong with me. I know he loves me and won't judge me, so why am I having such a hard time with this?
Then after, I cried so much because I felt so mean and stupid for
hurting him and I felt worthless and I just felt like a mess.
*How do I accept his help without getting defensive like I always do?
*And how do I stop being so self conscious and realise that people worry because they care?
*How can I handle my emotions better?
Also sometimes when something kind of bad happens or something doesn't go my way, my mood changes completely and really fast? Is there something wrong with me like mentally? Do I need to see a counselor, or can I change on my own?
Sorry this is so long..but I really need answers..serious answers only
please.
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