Why did i became someone/thing i sayd ill never become?

Question

when i was young.. i sayd

"if i ever get a girlfriend, i will never deny here and always brag about her, that i have her"

now that i have her

some people know

some dont

to my female friends...some do know..i told them

and to others i keep saying i dont have one

why...

why do i deny her...

i mean... she brags about me all the time.. i heard her and everyone says......

but why dont i do the same

im not ashamed nor embarassed..

in fact

she sure is the most beautiful girl ever.. if you saw her, you will love her.. she is ....wow....

but i asked my self this before

if i love her...

but well.. i have to be with her.. i promise her to be true adn honest.. and to never hurt her... so .. i will never leave her

***one more thing...

i may deny her.. but that does not mean ill have another girl besides her....

Answer 1

why wouldnt you brag about her?

my guess would be you dont really love her like she does you.......i cant stop telling people about my fiancee....im either talking to her or about her.

Answer 2

perhaps you think of the comfort of the other person you are talking to.

for some reason, you dont like to upset the person or persons that you 'deny' your girlfriend.   in other words, you are looking for self satisfaction from that person that you would not get if you brought up the fact you have a girlfriend, who she is or whatever.  you fear either becoming ashamed of your actions with those people or fear to become embarrassed or some other form of confrontation with those people to whom you deny your girl.  everyone suffers because of it.  living a lie I guess.  it's not a comfortable way to exist.  you are too easily worried what other people think.  

Answer 3

You have worked it out yourself.  I don't think you love her like you should.  By the sounds of it, she loves and adores you and if you cannot give back, you should re-evaluate your life before the relationship gets very hurtful

Answer 4

the spacing of your question makes my brain hurt.