Why do I am feel nervous when someone asks me if I like women?

Question

well I live in mexico.. I am g*y and I act like child or something effeminate.. I try to hide myself.. I live in a small town in mexico.. so my problem is I feel bad.. anxiety and fears for people asking if I am g*y or not.. sorry if my english is bad, I like men but I don't know g**s around me.. personally.. I like those who are masculine or straight guys.. because I have read on this forum.. many g*y guys say they are pretty masculine.. so I don't know if that's true.. mexicans think a g*y man is something effeminate.. even girls are little homophobic here.. I am so sad sometimes.. I am lonely in this.. I am afraid of meeting g**s from my city on internet.. because they can be effeminate and I don't like that. even my mom knows that I am g*y.. she gets mad at me when I say her.. I saw a guy very handsome today. with her face.. I know she is angry.. well I am 21 and I am sad for it.. my home and school.. so nobody understands me

Answer 1

im afraid that because you live in a homophobic environment, you cant be your true self... i sugest you move city if you want to be the real you... otherwise we cant help you :(

Answer 2

Well be who you are,  nobody says that you have to act effeminate because you are g*y.  If you are 21 try taking a trip to the US,  and see that there are plenty of other g*y men.