Why do I do this?

Question

I'm fifteen years old and I have a two-year-old sister. Right from when she was born, I've been like a parent to her. My Mum had to go back into hospital shortly after she was born and so I was the main person looking after my sister and changing/feeding her. We've been close ever since, I frequently take her out and do things for her. And I know that I love her unconditionally, like I would my own child. I even treat her like my own child, I find myself calling her darling and beautiful all the time. She adores me and is always asking for me, always wants to be with me. I love spending time with her and taking her out. Even my Mum thinks that I'm like a third parent to her.

I've been depressed for a long time now and my little sister has been the thing I've been focusing on. I'm on anti-depressants and anti-psychotics. Over the last few months, I've started asking her things like if she hates me. She will get confused and answer yes and I will actually get upset even though I know

Answer 1

Maybe you just need confirmation of her love. Obviously you have a very strong bond with her.Prehaps you feel jealous of the fact she isn't yours and that she maybe loves your Mum more.She's 2.She loves you all the same.Unconditionally.But you must stop this behaviour as it will affect her and you wouldn't want to be responsible for that.

You should talk to your GP , as you are on alot of tablets for such a young girl, and it is probably something to do with whatever is wrong or a side affect of the tablets.

Remember when we feel low or sad it is easy to be mean to the people that love us most because they will always love us,but it isn't acceptable.Don't spoil the relationship you have.Talk to someone.

Good luck and hugs.

Answer 2

Your only 15 and your on Anti-Depressants AND Anti-Psychotics, WOW! that seams heavy stuff for a 15 year old, I would say your suffering from the side effect of these drugs, that's all it can be if your a healthy 15 year old, I don't like drugs of any kind as some of these have terrible side effects, and s***w you up.  I would try and ease of them, and try and do without them, you seam a nice kind pleasant girl.  Good luck, and give your little sis a big x from me. Keep smiling.

Answer 3

You need to speak to a professional who can help you. It is easy to take things out on the people closest to you even if you don't mean it so get yourself sorted soon so you don't ruin the great relationship you have with her. Your doctor can put you in touch with someone

Answer 4

You CAN'T help yourself, which is why you're on anti-depressants.  Don't be so hard on yourself.  Just try to be nice to your sister.  I don't think she'll feel too hurt about the whole mood-swing thing, so don't worrry about it.

Answer 5

I think your biggest fear if that she would hate you and when you get upset that's what you ask her, maybe telling her is just pushing her away to protect yourself if she did hate you or maybe you are sub-consciencly jealous of her getting everything and all the attention.

Anyhow i think you hurt her because you love her and people can blame those they love when they are upset you need medication and med reviews i hope you get counselling and you need to stop confusing your sister its not good for a child.

Edit: i also have an idea why not try being a teen for a bit rather than a mother it might help to be a little bit selfish for yourself

Answer 6

First i think you are amazing with what you are doing! but what you are doing isn't probaly un-normal because of all the stress of looking after a younge child i think you need to talk to your parents and talk to a professional.

Answer 7

You need to get some help before you mess that little child up.

Answer 8

youra teenager and are still growing hormones are natural and saying you hate siblibings when you dont mean it  is naturaly and everyone does it,,,it doesnt mean your a nut case or that your need help it means your a normal girl and even if you are depressed on top of that you are acting normally towards your sister if anything your a better sister than most because of how much you love her. x dont worry

Answer 9

I can't be certain, but it might be because you feel insecure - and you want someone to tell you how much they love you - and youv'e become so attched to your sister that you want it to be a positive outcome everytime. After she got confused and said no you were extremely hurt and kept asking until it almost become or has become an obsession. Maybe ask someone about this and hopefully it will die down and just go right away. Just remeber that your sister and mum do love you (:

Answer 10

i have no idea...

maybe you sould pray and ask God to help you stop being so depressed and doing stupid things.

and if your not a christian become one!

you are a christian when you believe in God and you know He died on the cross for your sins and you accept Him as your God!

plus when you die you go to heaven!

Answer 11

have you tried speaking to your parents about this? if not, you really should speak to someone, good luck

Answer 12

first of all, don't ask your sister anymoreheavy questions like that. she doesn't understand yet the meaning of "hate" anyway, and she shouldn't. that only upsets you. if you like to spend quality time with your sister, continue. that is not what is depressing you, im sure. you should talk to a counselor also, and mabey try a different medicine. the one you are taking isn't doing what it is supposed to do. i commend you for taking care of your sister so thoroughly, but mabey it is time to step back and be a brother/sister to her. (you never specified) and let your mom do the mothering since she is better. you might just need some time to find your own intrests now, you are 15!!  my children are very close as well, but i draw the line very tightly, between mom & sibling. it is time you should too. also, she will not understand you being upset either. she might take it that you are upset with her, i would play,take her out, do your normal things with her, on days that you feel better. that way she doesn't get confused.

Answer 13

Talk to your parents, a teacher, a guidance counselor, or any trusted adult who will listen.  You need more help from a mental health professional than you're getting.  And if that's how you're feeling, for the safety of your little sister, you should no longer be caring for her or otherwise be alone with her.  It's not that you're evil or a bad sister, but you have an illness that needs to be addressed.  So if you truly love your sister, get yourself help now.  Good luck.