Why do I feel so "Away" and "fake" around all of my friends and family?

Question

I feel like either I am an outsider watching a movie when I am around them. or I am in a dream and it is not really happening. In the last 3 years I only had one event feel real. and It was when I was sitting on the grass watching 2 of my friends have a sword fight with tree sticks.

Why do I feel like everything I do with them is Fake? or like I'm not really there?

I am 16 I love my family and All of my friends. but I feel like none of them really want me there. and when I should be happy and enjoying myself I feel alone. or like I am in a dream. or I am watching a movie. and the event that is happening right in front of me in happening in the movie and not in real life?

Sorry for the bad Grammer. school is not my best subject.

~Mad_CatZ

Answer 1

This is called "dissociation" in psychology. It's when a person is traumatized and distances themselves from reality to feel safe. So I would guess that you either were traumatized or something happened to make you feel that no one wants you to be alive. If you can ever talk to a counselor or therapist, I think this feeling will lessen considerably.

Answer 2

your story is sad :~(

it looks like that you dont believe in yourself .thats why you act like someone else some ppl take the polite kind of person or shy . but the real you isnt there anymore .you have somthing inside you that needs to be changed so you can act like yourself again . mad_catz dont be sad we all love you Very much :D