Why do I feel suicidal?

Question

I will be going to a 4th tier school this fall. This is depressing me more every day that passes. Why? Well with the grades I got in High School that is not the place nor the people I should be studying with. I passed ten AP classes and took three more AP classes but didn't take the test in May. I am tri-lingual and my ***. unweighted gpa was 3.81. I got a 26 on my ACT and a 1,760 on my SAT. I got a 760 on my SAT Subject Spanish and a 590 on my US History SAT. I was president of French and Spanish Club. Academic All American in Debate as well as taking 2nd and 1st (junior and then senior respectively) place impromptu in the state debate meet as well as qualifying twice for NFL debate nationals and competing once. I was one of the school newspaper editors, member of National Honors Society, run track & field sophomore year, cross country junior year. Completed many hours of service with my local food bank.

I could go on for a few more lines but I think I made my point. I am getting close to starting college but this doesn't sound like the college experience everyone talks about. With the demographics of the school that I will go to being over 70% black with an average gpa of 2.3 I want to kill myself already.

Why did I not go to a better school, not because I didn't get accepted bec. University of Santa Clara, University of San Francisco, Tufts University, University of Utah, University of Michigan and New York University all accepted me. The problem is that none offered enough financial aid so that I could go there.

Help me with suggestions. WHAT CAN I DO TO CALM MYSELF????

Answer 1

you probably think it sounds stupid but ya.. seriously get some friends together and smoke a bowl, go run, exercise take your mind off stupid **** that is happening and realize if you just relax and take it easy there isnt even a problem really.

besides..you're in college with a black population of 70%..the nearest drug dealer is probably in the dorm next to you lol.

Answer 2

Well, it sounds like you have a fine future to me friend. The life experience you get at your new school will arm you well for your future as a well grounded leader in the business of your choice. Kids get out of Uni these days and have no idea how to communicate with others outside their intellectual demographic. This is your big chance.

The "poor" are much richer culturally than you might realise. We've learnt to make the best we can out of a bad situation. h**l, people can be both poor and happy... Go figure!  

Answer 3

Hay hay. You must see a doctor,ok don't worry what ever happen to you, i no your feeling coz i been though same problems but after i see a doctor i feel calm and understand the life,ok take care.  

Answer 4

Dude, a lot of people get all depressed in college.  If you live through it you'll thank yourself some years later.  If you don't live through it, then you'll have a lot of angry folks who thought you were selfish.  Either way it's not my problem, I lived through school.

Answer 5

First of all DONT smoke weed. its pointless.

Its natural for people to get depressed and stressed out at one point in there life. However if your honestly considering suicide you need to go to a doctor and get some help. A lot of people are really stubborn when it comes to stuff like that, i know i was, but if you need help then you need help, theres nothing wrong with that. I'm currently on an antidepressant. Its the third pill ive tried. So you have to keep in mind there isn't a quick fix to any problem. You just have to hang in there and talk to someone. And dont consider suicide, every life is worth living. No matter how much it may seem easier to end it, you can make it through. Good luck.

Answer 6

Maybe get a job for awhile and at the same time keep looking at your options, maybe there's a scholarship out there.  

Answer 7

i swear to god before u kill urself or anything like that smoke a fat blunt nd it will relax you and ull end up sayin fk it nd maybe anotherr oppertunity will open up that works for you..

Answer 8

smoke some weed dude it help a lot truthful

Answer 9

Smoke weed...