Why do I keep missing her?

Question

My mom has never been there for me. And she talked c**p about my dad. And she fired a law suit on him. Made my life h**l. And made me cry to sleep at night alot. I always remember her. And I keep remembering those fake fun moments with her. And I keep crying. But I know it was all fake stuff coming from her. So I wouldn't tell the court. How do I get over her? She moved to the UK. And I miss her alot. I keep contact with her on myspace. But I am still depressed. Cause she isn't a good mom. But I miss her.

Answer 1

Thats understandable, she is afterall your mom!  You probably feel a little guilty about your relationship, but you don't have to. It's not your fault at all.  it isn't the same but I think you should ask an aunt to hang out, or go to big sisters to receive a positive female relationship role model.  It may help to fill some of the voids.  IT will not fill all of them, as she is your mom and betrayed you, but it will help.  Maybe you need to start to talk to you mom about these feelings, and how her actions have made you feel.