Is it my depression doing this, or am i twisted?
i keep having dreams where my friends die. and in the last one i got a sense of it being my fault. :(
and i often have horrible thoughts. Most of them are suicide-related, which i can understand as i have a lot of suicidal thoughts. for example, when i'm on the bus, i imagine a car or lorry crashing into the side of the bus and crushing me.
but i also have horrible thoughts which involve other people. Like i imagine there being a gunman running riot in town, killing everyone, i imagine terrorist attack, i imagine there being a raging fire in a building and everyone screaming as they burn to death.
:(
why do i have these thoughts?
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