Okay, I know that I've made some stupid decisions, but come on. And I know people are going to say "See it from your parents point of view.", but why should I when they don't see it from my point of view? They don't listen to me. They only do whatever the other tells them to, so if one says no, so does the other. I'm fourteen years old and I've been unhappy since I was a little kid. I count down the years until college because then I know I can make a difference in my life and start over. Do my own thing, you know. All I want is to wear a little make up, get a myspace, and finally feel happiness and attractive for once. Why is that such a big deal? My mom is always like "I think you're pretty.", which is so nice of her and I appreciate it, but I want someone to think I'm beautiful and like me for me and not because I'm their daughter and they have to. And of course having a boyfriend is out of the question because they don't want me to do anything that'll "ruin their lives." I just want them to take the control off of me. I'm in high school now. I've had a rough life because we move like every two years and I'm always starting over and for once, I want to feel like I belong somewhere. I can't go to sleepovers and I rarely have friends over. I feel like I'm stuck in a prison and it just sucks sometimes. I want to be happy and confident and feel good about myself, but I just don't because they won't let me experience anything. What do I do? Maybe hearing this from a kid or an adults perspective would make me feel better. Preferably a parent.
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