I have 3 lovely children - and KNOW I don't want any more. I suffer from bi-polar and am completely surprised that my lovely nephew being born has triggered a huge manic episode.
My nephew is beautiful, but I haven't held him and don't want to. I suddenly feel like I have no capacity to love any more family (I have lots), I feel like I have failed my own children as my husband is a perpetual business man who insists I work in all his businesses, so I have little time for my own children. I think I am jealous as my sister in law will be staying at home with baby, but how the h**l do I get over this?
I need an answer from someone who understands bi-polar really.
I am more concerned that although I have withdrawn from regularly seeing people before, I now have an aversion to going to visit. It's worrying me all the time.
Fortunately, I am able to hide behind my own children as they want to do all the cuddling and fussing over the new baby but it will show eventually.
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