21 y.o and have worked so hard to be a nurse. I've got my AA degree, volunteered, and worked as a nursing assistant. I'm a "good girl" and gave up the social scene for my career. I'm very ambitious and silly as it sounds have always envisioned me in my early-mid 20's being a happy nurse - helping other ppl and getting that feeling in return. My dream is just to be a successful, happy, independent career woman, an adult. Even though it will be hard, I'm kinda anticipating the stresses of living on my own, paying for bills/my own things, dealing w. stupid co-workers, and just being an independent woman.
I was LUCKY and got into nursing school last quarter. God knows I worked my *** off but unfortunately got a 74% when passing was 75%. I was devastated and just accepted that in life, $hit happens and you just have to move on and keep working at it. Looking back, I had alot of growing up to do and couldn't have "grown up" unless I went through that experience - it was something pre-reqs couldn't teach me. During school, i was going through this "weird phase" in my life. I was 21 and everything around me changing and I just kept getting confused and lonely. Besides the whole "21" thing, nursing school was also changing me. B/c of the way I grew up, I had to stop being "scared" and just do it, I have to be confident in making my OWN decisions and not let guilt trip or any approval/disapproval affect me.
Most of the kids I graduated HS with, have graduated and are in their careers. I'm happy for them but jealous b/c they get to enjoy their life - they're living my dream of being the happy, independent career person I want to be and I feel stuck b/c I'm not even IN my major. :( Will I get there?
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