my father died when i was 9, i am 19 now and i feel as though it happened yesterday, my mother ignores my depression and makes me tell everyone that I'm happy and that I'm doing well.. i am lying.. i cant hold down a job because i feel suffocated easily, i have trouble being in relationship's because i feel like I'm trapped and alone when i have someone loving me,
my father was my entire world.. when you loose your entire world you feel as if there is nothing left to live for.. i don't want to kill myself because ive been down that road before.. but I'm temped to just up and leave without telling anyone where I'm going just to escape.
i need help but i cant have help at home.
what should i do.
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