I tried out for magnet high school, and got in with my grades. I was first interested by magnet school because I heard it was good for college. My major is health occupations, but I would start that in my sophomore year. The school is good because it is one of the top schools in my city. Well, on my first day at that school... it was horrible! ESPECIALLY IN THE GYM! I've never been into a gym that has such bad air conditioning! I was suffering from the heat, getting a headache, and getting dizzy! The school starts at 7 am, but we have to be there by 6:30 am. My school is on top of a hill btw, so it's closer to the sun... I have to pay so much money by September, and wake up at 4 am to get ready for my bus... I even had homework on the first day of school too... The next day, I was miserable to go to my classes. I had that feeling of "I REALLY REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO"... When I come back home, my mom would see me all stressed out looking, I don't eat that much, tired, and sometimes I would cry. Then, I filed for a zone variance to the "typical" high school(the magnet school calls it "typical"), and I didn't want to go to my zoned school. I only had the first week of the first semester to transfer out. I haven't transferred YET. The only bad thing was that, I had already scheduled a schedule change because today was the last day for the first week of school and to make sure I had that schedule in case when the zone variance didn't go through. The high school that zoned for me approved of the zone variance to go to the school I wanted to go to 2 hours later... Also, I started to get used to the school a bit, but not like loving it kind of thing. When I was thinking of getting out... I started to resent on my major, because I felt it was kinda early to figure out my future job right away. I just felt pretty rushed, and thought I should have stayed in "typical" high school to give myself some time to think and explore the programs they are able to offer. So, I can get an idea of what I'd probably enjoy doing in the future. Right now, I'm not really sure if health is really my thing because my mom would always talk about being a doctor is so great. When I think of it now, I don't really want to work with body parts and blood. What's bad enough is that, my dad bragged about me going to such a good school, so a lot of people know... My dad didn't to seem to look happy, but he said it was okay for me to leave. I feel guilty. I feel like an idiot that screwed up so much. I should have thought about this over the summer if the school was really the right place for me. I was so over my head that it was good for my college! I never thought of what I was getting in to :( Am I doing the right thing or not? Any advice??? I'm really upset and confused. I'm also afraid what the outcome of all of this. I just went and gave the schedule change for the magnet school to insure that if I wasn't going to be able to transfer, I would have a good schedule to stick with at least. Now that I'm allowed to go to my new school, what am I going to do?? I already sent the schedule change and they would find out that I'm planning to transfer!! I'm in such a big mess... Please help?
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