Ok, here is the deal...met this girl out of state 3 years ago off of a single date site..we hit it off when we first met online..ok, well we exchanged pictures and after a few months of us talking and texting everyday all thru the day we decided to meet...ok, well I paid for her to fly out and she did, she very nice looking lady but there were some variations in her pictures..except a few..but still I wasnt expecting the weight thing..call me an *** hole if you will but I was taken aback by how she was alot bigger than I am use to going out with or even thinking of marrying....ok, so we hit it off and when she left I stopped all contact with her...about a month went by and I was missing her like crazy...great personality and very pretty face and hair. just not into big girls..sorry ladys...im not...hate me i guess but im just not..and I told her that too...ok, so we start talking again, and about 8 months later I paid for her to come and see me...well again she hadnt lost any weight and I thought she would had being I told her why I stopped talking to her..but there is just something about her..now the 2nd time she came out she stayed 2 whole weeks...we had a blast....great person to hang with very smart has a great job...she is everything I want in a package deal but the weight just gets to me..ok she leaves...we continue talking and I again tell her I have a problem with big girls....well as time goes by it doesnt even cross my mind..I love talking to her and I do miss her when we arent talking....oh by the way I am 46 and she is 38, both of us has children and we have both been married before...now we are on to the 3rd time I flew her out again a year later....and she still hadnt lost any weight...but when she is here I LOVE her to death, but as soon as she leaves my buddies and my friends all have comments about her,most love her to death also, but there are a few that have things I dont want to hear...well after a while that plays on your mind..keep hearing it over and over...ok she stays the 3rd time 2 weeks...last summer....ok, she leaves and when she left...I again felt different about her and told her its her weight....well we continue talking, now mind you we are very very good friends and get along very well and she is very nice looking...just a little over weight...now we are 6 months in after the 3rd visit and I fly her out last Christmas and she stayed 2 more weeks with me..had a blast but the same thing her here, I love her to pieces and we have a great time,,and she is awesome in the sack tooo...she leaves and the same thing...my buddies come up and start saying things...as for most they really like her and my family loves her to death....so this past summer she flew back out for a month end of June thru the middle of July...........WOW, that really hit home...I flew her youngest out tooo he is 9, oh and my kids love her, my daughter is 22 and my son is 15...they love her just like she loves them too and her and my son got really really close..now thru all this she has been real faithful to me and I have cheated I guess if you call it cheating,,,on her about 10 times. she knew it and i know it hurt her..cant help it, im a guy. they meant nothing but she does. So I keep calling and we keep talking when she left this last time I just cant seem to let go of the weight issue..and what my buddies say about her the ones that do say negitive things. What do I do...I have avoided all contact with her in the last 3 weeks but she hasnt called me neither I miss her. I am so confused? I really know deep down inside I do love her. I have been married 3 times and divorced. But she is different..What? What is it about her? What do I do?
Oh yeah she sent me an email a few weeks back after I did the "I'll call you back and didn't and basically broke it off which I didn't care but I really do deep down inside. I guess I was hoping her weight would change and that would make all the difference in the world. I dont know. HELP!!!! Thanks, Lance
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