<span title="Thoughts..Feelings..Starvation">Thoughts..Feelings..Starv...</span> instincts...In my brain..Mushed Up...Grr...Help?

Question

I was having instincts to starve since i was 11 ( 3 years)

They went away for around a year, and in the last month, The feelings are back and they are very very strong.

Its like Im having a conversation in my head all the time:

'Lose 10lb,everything will be okay'

'But will it? I doubt it will be'

'Just starve, everything will be okay'

I know this sounds crazy, but I know that the two instincts are going to mush in my brain and I know it will end up with me eatting not much at all.

I keep giving myself times like ' Okay, you can starve yourself tommorow, just sleep on it, if you want to,you can,if you go straight into it, it will get addictive for you and you wont be able to stop'

I can start to see how people with eating disorders feel like

If youve gone past 3 days without eating, how can you stop, then that 3 days turn into 5 days, turn it 10 days,turn into 15 until you starve to faint.

What do i do :S

Answer 1

If you don&#039;t want to go to the doctor, and you don&#039;t want me to slap you in the face so hard, that your mother will feel it try this.

Starvation mode, should never be comfortable for you, unless your a slave, or a jew in the 1940&#039;s,  so you need to one thing. Eat. None the less eating a small snack or a big meal will coupe with it. For a few days I&#039;d eat lunch, dinner, and breakfast, and eat a snack every 1-2 hours to coupe with hunger issues. 10lbs doesn&#039;t solve anything, and not eating doesn&#039;t help let alone eating too much. So gett your *** out and exercising is the best way to loose weight. I&#039;d suggest jogging or lfiting weight; because if you exercise you don&#039;t have to worrie as much about over eating, or under eating becuase your body will kick your *** if you do either. I know from expericed, Spent 8 hours outside cutting grass, after it was done I was ready to eat a cow (the grass was about 3ft tall and wild...) So none the less eat, before your stomach acid burns through your stomach leaving you in a hospitcal for a week, causing you years of issues.

Answer 2

Go and see your doctor.

Answer 3

Psychotherapy perhaps?

Answer 4

Firstly yes I seriously recommend you go to your doctors and explain what you&#039;ve just said above. Also if you&#039;re only 14, your parents will no doubt already be worried about you as it is, talk to them too.

As for the thoughts, I don&#039;t have thoughts to starve myself, but I can relate to convincing myself to do something and then things will be ok and should you ever reach your target, the things are never ok - you just set yourself another target. I think it&#039;s a way of coping and when you reach the target and nothings better, you panic a little and push yourself further. Its like that for me anyhow.

Food generally isn&#039;t the main problem when it comes to eating disorders, its about a lack of control in life and trying desperately to have control over something, anything and that&#039;s when the disorder begins.

Your doctor could arrange a referral for you, not only someone to talk to about your issues but also a dietitian who will help you with your problems with food.

I wish you every hope for the future.

Take Care.

Answer 5

I suggest you seek professional counselling. The problems you pose is beyond the scope of most answers you will get